I am sorry if my last entry made anyone think that I am depressed. I am a happy guy (most of the time) but everyone runs into a bump in the road once in a while.

I went out with Remy last night to his local pub where we often sit and talk for a couple of hours. Sit and talk we did. It felt good and in turn I spent today with a much lighter conscience. I spent most of the day sitting in the sun and soaking in the hot tub and I discussed the possibility of purchasing a used motorcycle with my dad, a motorcycling enthusiast; I think he was happy deep down that I am showing interest in something he loves to do. I want to land at cruising speed with the beautiful view from a motorcycle.

I feel like a champ tonight. It’s going to be a good week.

On most days I feel like my mind is on a roller coaster; It’s moving so fast that I don’t have time to finish a thought before I get thrown into another, but this ride is operated by my subconscious.

Out of the heap of thoughts and ideas that make up my current thoughts there are two distinctive piles of thoughts that I can make up at this point. One is that I miss my Raph and Remy and I need to spend time with them in order for my mind to simmer down, my long time friends are my mental stabilizers. The second heap is me wanting to escape everything, with or without my closest friends, to a remote cabin or cottage and just relaxing. I want to canoe for hours, fish, sit around a camp fire, and have meals with my friends while discussing the things that matter as well the as the philosophies of Seinfeld. If only this were possibly, if only we didn’t have to work for my last summer of boyhood, if only I could sit outside and stare at the stars and have the answers come to me as easily as my dreams and aspirations. If only growing pains weren’t so painful.

One thing I always say to my friends is “Come on, you know I am not that guy”. I am not the guy who fucks his friends over, I am not the guy who drives through a red light even when it’s 3 in the morning and the roads are empty, I am not the guy who cuts in line, I am not the guy who shits all over a bathroom for shits and giggles, I am not the guy who breaks his promises, I am not the guy who holds up a queue. Until today I thought I wasn’t the guy who makes a mess in a pizza place and then just walks out like it never happened.

I was leaving Pizza Pizza with my trash in one hand and my carbonated sugared water can in the other. The trash was made up of a folded cardboard pizza slice holder holding two napkins, and a garlic dipping sauce container. The unexpected happened as I neared the trashcan – the garlic dipping sauce slipped out of the cardboard and exploded on the floor leaving a splatter of dipping sauce all over the place. I panicked. I walked out like it never happened.

I could picture the guys from CSI investigating the splatter pattern and finding out that the culprit was 5’9”, had greasy hands, and was moving fairly quickly; perhaps he was even running from a murderer! Thankfully I was just in a hurry to get into my car and finish listening to an Offspring song I had started listening to on the way there.

I am not that guy who can stop listening to a song halfway through.

I am the guy who makes a mess and escapes the scene of the crime.

Throughout the duration of last week, I quickly discovered that Tonsillitis sux! Although I did enjoy the whole waking up in the middle of the night in a pillow of saliva, clenching my fist in preparation to swallow what felt like a mace. But now, I am free of symptoms! Finally I can go out and enjoy myself slight pause No. I still have 2 days of antibiotics to finish my course, which means 2 more drinking days deducted from the already not enough 7. Still, I’ve arranged to go for a drink with the usual tomorrow. Just means I’ll have to drink something non alcoholic. The whole thought of being in a pub sober feels me with all sorts of emotions I cannot explain. It’s like going to get yourself an empty glass of orange juice. Pointless.

Anyway, I might just break the rules, get totally wasted and suffer the consequences… If there are any. I really don’t wanna get Tonsillitis back, but I really wanna get pissed and act like a twat tomorrow. I’m in a modern day dilemma!

It hit me the other day, while reading an interview with Steve jobs, that there is such a huge untapped market for video downloads. Jobs said that a sort of video iPod would never happen because people don’t want to watch movies on a tiny screen. I agree with that opinion and most intelligent people do. People don’t want to watch Titanic on the bus on the way to work or Braveheart on the toilet. As intelligent as these people might be I think they are missing on crucial part of the market.

I’ll let you in on a little secret: All the television I watch these days are shows that are recorded by my PVR (like a TiVo) or I’ve downloaded (because the show either doesn’t play here or I missed an episode). What I love about watching recorded shows is that I watch them whenever I want at my own convenience and I fast forward through commercials. I pay extra for my PVR so I believe it to my right to not watch those commercials. I have a point to make somewhere in this paragraph, and it’s coming soon. People love downloading TV shows and they love watching them whenever they want, commercial free. I think legal downloads of 30 or 60 minute (now 22 and 42 minutes without commercials) TV shows would be a great hit along with a device like a video iPod. Yes, people don’t want to watch cinematic epics on a small screen or their laptop, but a 30 minute sitcom? You better believe it.

I can just picture myself going to the Apple iFlix movie store and downloading the latest episode of Everybody Loves Raymond and Curb Your Enthusiasm and maybe some old episodes of Seinfeld and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles.

Just look at the huge success of the TiVo, people want to watch television shows when they want to and are willing to pay for it.

We, the people who download television shows, are not criminals. We simply value our time or really enjoy a show and can’t watch it on regular television. Help us help you, to make money selling us great shows.